Do you remember that one post when I wrote about losing a follower after posting
about my mental/emotional disorders? Well - since that post I have lost 8 more followers.
There may not be any correlation (they may just be people who are disappointed
in my lack of posting, or who don't blog themselves anymore) but I can't help thinking
that these are people who can't deal with/don't want to hear about the heavy stuff.
Which kind of boggles my mind - because then what were they thinking
when they started following someone called "Ms Misantropia"..?
It's a good thing I think easing the stigma around mental/emotional disorders
and spreading useful information is more important than keeping followers!
So, if any of you out there who are struggling with depression have been thinking about
starting on meds or changing up your meds, here's an update on Vortioxetine
- that I have been taking for about 6 months now, but that is still relatively unknown:
Vortioxetine (Brintellix in Sweden) takes a looooong time to work,
there is no doubt about it. I would estimate it takes 3-4 weeks longer than any
other drug I have tried (and I have basically tried them all). 2 months ago
I went from 10 mg (starting dose) to 15 mg, and a month later I upped it to 20 mg
(recommended highest dose). So far I have noticed another slight improvement
in my mood, but I won't experience the full affect until another month or so.
The only side effect I have noticed is a temporary digestive issue that seems
like lactose intolerance - distended stomach/bowels + gassiness/burpiness.
It may not be very pleasant, but compared to sexual dysfunction,
weight gain, rampant insomnia, no alcohol allowed and persistent skin rashes
(yes - meds are FUN) it's a small sacrifice to make for a month or two.
The negative "voices" are growing more silent, I experience less anxiety,
less irritation/anger and less sadness. I still find it hard to get out of bed
and to deal with stressful things, but it's not as bad as it used to be.
The fact that I have no sexual side effects (which I otherwise experienced with
every single medicine except Wellbutrine/Voxra - but those didn't help at all,
they just made me into a complete anger ball) gives me patience and hope.
So, how are you guys doing?