2014-08-14

Weirdness and spookiness



I have started on new meds. Some of you depressed, anxious, crazy
wonderful blog friends out there might know what that means.
Chills, sweats, insomnia (worse than usual), nausea, blurry vision.
It's such fun. Luckily the side effects already seem to be lessening.

But I don't keep my hopes up that this drug will be any different
than the others I've tried. After 20 years of depression I think
it is safe to say I am pretty much Treatment Resistant. Whoopie.

Then on Wednesday I got two huge shipments to the store, of clothes,
boots and lots of trinkets. I have spent two days unpacking, tagging,
organizing storage and doing windows. Now I'm exhausted and weird.


Quickly on to some happier news:





Wonderful Marfi at Incipient Wings is hosting her lead-up-to-
Halloween party, Haunted Humpday, again this year!
It's going to be great and it's all kicking off on August 27th.

I'm not sure if there are rules to be found somewhere on her blog,
but as I remember it the partiers shared scary stories and reads,
DIY Halloween crafts and anything else fittingly spooky :)

Won't you join us?







 






26 kommentarer:

  1. Sorry you have to deal with another med. I've known lots of friends to be on various cocktails none that have ever helped. I tried one once and it took a huge hit on my immune system. I decided I'd rather deal with my anxiety than be a really sick zombie, but you know what doctors like to say, "the benefits out weigh the side effects" - shouldn't I be the judge of that? Hopefully things go alright for you.

    Exciting news about the Halloween Humpday, I've never heard of it before. I might join in. :)

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I have a low re-uptake of any drug, so I have to take large amounts of things to feel different and most times I don't feel anything. It's a trial-and-error thing. Some days I'm hopeful, some days I am totally giving up.

      Radera
  2. I hope the side-effects settle down soon!

    SvaraRadera
  3. Oh gosh new meds are a nightmare! I live with someone who has suffered from depression for the last 35 years and has been on every drug under the sun. It's awful. I hope it goes ok for you dear friend!

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I'm sorry to hear that. Chronic depression is often one of those invisible diseases/disorders, and many of us are functioning enough not to get the help we really need :(

      Radera
  4. I hope the side effects keep lessoning & that this med might actually help!

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Thank you, but I'm already losing faith...

      Radera
  5. Get better. I do not know what you are going through, but I do know how insomnia can drive one mad, as I often suffer from it.

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I gave up a few years ago and started on sleeping pills. It has changed alot for the better. To anyone with insomnia I say; get over the resistance to taking pills! I just have to take more right now, and that sucks.

      Radera
  6. One thing I hated about new meds were the side-effects.
    But after a couple of weeks I'm sure your mind will feel a little healthier.
    I hope it does.

    Your new stock will keep you busy for a while :)

    Have a lovely weekend x

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I hope you are right, but it's not looking any different than the others I've tried so far.

      Radera
  7. Sorry to hear you have a difficult time, but I applaud you for keeping trying despite the side-effects. New stuff is always fun!

    SvaraRadera
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    1. In this case, new stuff is mostly annoying actually :) But I keep at it.

      Radera
  8. Last time I went for a blood test, I was told that my cholesterol was too low (I had no idea that was even a thing), and that it can contribute to depression. Lots of deficiencies like that can make it worse…. had a blood test lately? Maybe you're low on a vitamin or a mineral or a fatty acid or something. Could explain why the psych meds don't help- because the problem is systemic?

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I have never had a full work up, because we don't actually have those done in Sweden (until you're pregnant or old or something). It's an interesting idea though, thanks for the tip.

      Radera
  9. I usually don't take drugs for pain. Must of the time I can go through life by doing relaxation exercises, stretches and being all kinds of stubborn. But when I got sick a few weeks ago, my strength was too low and my will, well... you know how that goes. So I had to take some pretty strong pain killers. Some of the side effects are sweats, chills, hallucinations and a relationship with the toilet that no one ever wants. My moods were a mess, too. I'm better now, but I thought of you a lot while those bad days were kicking my behind. You are a very strong woman, my darling. And reading you make the rest of us know that we can be strong, too... I'm a beast when it comes to fighting physical pain, but when I can't work out enough to keep my serotonin levels high, I find myself invoking your name (and a few others) quite a bit. Thought you should know that.

    And yes, I just joined Haunted Humpday!

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I'm afraid I'm not like you when it comes to drugs, I would take whatever I can whenever I can. Though it turns out most things don't help and I end up taking nothing anyway.

      My father has lived with a very painful degenerative disease all his life, but I still can't imagine what it's like to live with physical pain 24/7. I think you have a very healthy approach to your situation, and no-one can blame you for "falling off the wagon" at times.

      Radera
  10. I loathe trying new anti-depressants. It's awful and when they don't work or cause weird side affects or worse, make me angry, it so much more frustrating. I really hope you get to feeling better soon and this medicine works for you. *Hugs*

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I agree. Sometimes it feels like getting punished for being ill :( and the worst part is knowing there is really no such thing as a magic pill to get better.

      Radera
  11. Good luck with the meds. The store shipments sound exciting, I wish I could teleport over there and help out!

    SvaraRadera
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    1. That would be really great. Sometimes I imagine inviting all my blog friends over for a great big fairytale party :)

      Radera
  12. I know what you mean, and it is always difficult to start new therapy. I wish you the best, nonetheless. Lots of strenght from here <3

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Thank you very much, Violette. To you too.

      Radera
  13. Sorry to hear the meds are messing with you so badly! :( Anxiety and depression are bad enough without the "treatment" making you feel terrible too! I hope the effects will settle down for you. ❤

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Thank you, Emma. It's so true, experimenting with ones head and emotions is never easy.

      Radera

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