2014-03-19

Travel nerves



I have the jitters. My bed stand is full of hand written lists, my belly
is full of butterflies. I'm leaving in 5 days and up 'til now most of my energy
has been spent on filling out the ridiculously long web application for my man
to be allowed to live with me in Sweden, and on trying to survive every day
sad and completely alone. But yesterday suddenly a new host of emotions
settled on me; anxiety, excitement, hope - and serious travel nerves.

I can't remember when I last had a pleasant trip, it's been many years.
A couple of years back I did fly to Florence, Italy - only to get caught
right up in the problems following the eruption of the Icelandic volcano.
I had one night of relaxation and beer drinking before I heard the news
and then spent the rest of my time desperately trying to find a spot on a bus
or in a car driving north. It was one of the most stressful experiences of my life.

Traveling on stand-by this time is certainly not doing much to calm me.
There is a slight possibility I will get bumped at the very last second,
when I'm already at the airport, ready to go. It's hard to think about.
Leaving my cats in the care of my parents is also a bit of a gamble.
And packing! The last time I packed for a short trip I ended up
with nothing to wear. I don't even know how that happened.

And last but not least: What will it be like seeing my man again,
but then only getting 3 days with him? What will it be like having to
part yet again after just a few days, this time not knowing when
we will see each other again? That one hurts to think about.




 




26 kommentarer:

  1. I hope you don't get bumped! You two will be back together soon, even after this visit, I just know it!

    SvaraRadera
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    1. You are such an incurable optimist :)

      Radera
  2. Ehh...just don't worry beforehand. I know it's easier said, than done, but try to make the most of these 3 days, enjoy your time together instead of thinking about how it will feel to part again, because that will ruin your trip...:)

    I hate packing for trips...as I prefer to be comfy, Ialways end up having too few clothes and too few choices and options. I really love to travel, but packing...no, that's just a pain...

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Agreed, I too want to be comfy and somehow always just end up with more underwear than anything else...

      Radera
  3. You are thinking too, too much! Too many what ifs. Go and have a good time with your man! Everything will turn out just fine. And enjoy the time you have together.

    SvaraRadera
  4. *hugs* I really hope that long application you filled out gets approved and he can move back and be with you again for good!

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I fantasize about Migrations calling him up saying: There's been a mistake, you shouldn't have left Sweden in the first place!

      Radera
  5. Visualize getting on that plane, not getting bumped, no Icelandic volcano eruptions, having a marvelous time with your man, drinking American coffee (avoid Starbucks), eating cupcakes for breakfast, and maybe fitting in a bit of sale shopping. It's all gonna be good, Ms. Misantropia. I'm absolutely sure of it. ♥

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Another optimist! How do you guys do it?
      I actually want to go to Starbucks, it's an American institution :)

      Radera
  6. I hope it is wonderful! Hopefully, you will become calmer as it gets closer. xoxo

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I wish, but the closer I get the higher the chance of getting bumped...

      Radera
  7. I know that it is almost silly to say, "Take it one bit at a time." If we could control what our brain is going to stress over we would, right? So I won't say that. I will suggest making another list of all the things you guys will do when he finally comes to Sweden. A bit ahead, I know, but it might remind the brain that even if saying goodbye so quick after saying hello will hurt, there also be tomorrow to say hello again.

    SvaraRadera
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    1. We talk about what we are going to do when he gets back all the time. But Migrations has told us it can take up to 11 months! :(

      Radera
  8. Thank you for the sweet comment about my blog Traveling Cats. Bon voyage :)

    SvaraRadera
  9. You poor thing. :( But I think your lists and understanding all your options will help you make sure you're prepared for every eventuality. I hope you don't get bumped, and I'm sure your time in the US will be awesome! :)

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Thank you, Lexa. I really hope I get to go.

      Radera
  10. Oh sweetie, I should have made you chug a rainbow cocktail at Oma's Oz party (great relaxation effect)... Now all those bad things you worry about may happen, things may not go 'perfectly'' BUT what if they do, if every thing works out, falls into place, cats and parents happy, who cares if you don't pack right (wear your mans jumper in the day and his shirt to bed, just remember shoes and sexy undies ok) All those anxious thoughts that make you fret because you can't control them, well, that's just it, you can't, so listen up, if you get 'bumped' you will still get to see your man (reschedule), even if that darned paperwork takes 11 months, you will still be with your man, if the only outfit you remember to take is what you arrive in the U.S wearing, it really doesn't matter, you will be with your man :) What I am trying to say, is that maybe focus on that man, he and you, long term goal is that place by the fireside cuddled together, all that other stuff, well donor 3 days you will be with your Cinnamon Man, hey that's cool, agreed it's magical

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Although I like the sentiment of your comment, unfortunately I can't get rescheduled if I get bumped :( I'm flying jump-seat as friend of one of the stewards. If I don't make this flight I won't have another chance until fall.

      Radera
  11. Spell check makes things weird "all that other stuff, well don't worry for 3 days you will be with your Cinnamon Man" UGGH sent before I could fix LOL. I know you guys will sort any obstacle because you sound perfect together, go enjoy your man, crap it's not longer than 3 days BUT savour, and know you will have him by your side, because stupid government paperwork ain't gonna keep true love from being together xoxo

    SvaraRadera
  12. I'm not surprised that you're full of nerves with so many things on your mind. It must be very overwhelming. I hope everything goes smoothly for you! Try to enjoy your time with your sweetie and worry about the future later. :)

    SvaraRadera
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    1. If I make that flight I will certainly savor the time :)

      Radera
  13. All my best to you as you embark on your travels. Hope everything works out and you have a lovely time together, even if only for a short while. Sounds like a long and hard process you will both have to go through, but well worth it in the end. Patience, determination and love will get you were you need to be.

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Thank you for your kind words, BlackHeartGirl.

      Radera

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