2014-03-05

Goodbyes and March-to-do



Early this morning I dropped my man off at the train station.
It felt unreal driving away. For two years we've spent every day together.
We spent our last night together with lots of tea in front of a fire,
but now the house is cold and empty. I'm sitting in bed surrounded by
comfort foods like chicken and chips, beer and chocolate cake.
Buffy is on the dvd-player and I'm stealing cuddles from the kitties.

After I had dropped off my Cinnamon man I went home and did myself up
to go and have my passport renewed. Makeup didn't really help.
I look how I feel - like crap. Bloated, flaky skin, black rings under my eyes
- all courtesy to pain and PMS. The only thing in my life now is keeping busy
until I see my baby again. So, in the coming three weeks I will: 



1. Give the house a good spring cleaning.
There are floors and windows to be cleaned, a kitchen that could use
a good scrub down, curtains to be washed and lots of stuff to organize.

2. Prepare for my hop to the States.
I have to pick up my renewed passport and apply for Travel
Authorization to the States, somehow intelligently pack a carry-on bag
for a weekend of unpredictable Pacific coast spring weather, leave kitty-care
instructions with my mom and pick up my prescription at the pharmacy.

3. Lose the weight I have put on through all the emotional eating
and drinking done in the last two months (...starting tomorrow... :)).
 For me, losing weight is a long term plan without diets or fads.
I will just be eating less and cutting back on alcohol.



I know that my posts this last month have not been the usual.
There haven't been nearly as many pictures, and obviously there's
been a new and recurring theme. But I promise that I will get back to
posting more about little projects and the like very soon.





 




42 kommentarer:

  1. And it's even worse considering why the two of you are being separated. You're still very brave.

    SvaraRadera
  2. Oh you dear, sweet woman - I feel your pain and am deeply sorry for everything you're going through.

    Just do what you need, to make yourself feel better. Eat if it's comforting, you can worry about weight-loss when your mind is at peace.

    You can both e-mail one another daily, see one another on Skype, and of course you can kick his ass with X-Box Live :)

    SvaraRadera
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    1. We will definitely Skype, but the game thing might be problematic, since Cinnamon man has the console app on his computer.

      Radera
  3. I've been in a couple of long-distance relationships over the years and I know they're not easy. Hugs to you today, girl. Keep busy and stay happy!

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I have too and yeah - long distance sucks ass.

      Radera
  4. My heart is breaking for you and for your Cinnamon Man too. You're a strong woman though, handling this better than most people I know would. Enjoy your beer and chicken and whatever else you need to make yourself feel more human and better right now and enjoy planning your trip to the States. xox

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I don't know if I'm handling it well yet. Ask me again after I've been to the States and we're back to not knowing when we will see each other again...

      Radera
  5. Wishing you to be strong! Those planned activities seem like a good remedy from your sadness :) Sending hugs and blessings to you!

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I hope they will keep me busy, but yesterday I stared at the mess that is the house and just wanted to blow it all off forever...

      Radera
  6. I'm sorry that you have to experience this paint, but I love that you have a plan! xoxo ♡

    SvaraRadera
  7. I'm sorry that you have to experience this pain. I somehow hit a t.

    SvaraRadera
  8. Ah, dear...just keep holding on, think about your upcoming trip! ^^ I'm sure you two will stay in daily contact and you can even skype - call each other.

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Oh yes, we will Skype almost every day. It's essential for me to see my baby and keep up to date on everyday stuff, be part of each other's lives even though we're so far apart.

      Radera
  9. I'm so sorry your sweetheart is gone, and I certainly understand the comfort-food binge. Sometimes, that's just gotta happen. I'm glad you have a plan and hope the 3 weeks pass quickly. <3
    (P.S. Doris Day comes from German stock.)

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Thank you, Lexa.

      Ah, that explains my feeling about her :)

      Radera
  10. Sigh ... this sucks so bad. :-( Lovers should never have to part. Boooo!!!

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Agreed. There's not enough romance in this world, and far too many obstacles.

      Radera
  11. Buffy is my comfort show too. I hope it helps get you through this rough time. You're coping beautifully, making a plan, looking ahead to seeing your love!

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I don't know if you know - but Sarah Michelle Gellar did a Ask Me Anything on Reddit a few days ago, and was live on Huffpost last night (my time) :)

      Radera
  12. So sorry to hear that the day finally arrived for your sweetie to go. :( You sound like you've got a good plan to help you endure the separation though. ❤

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Thank you, I hope I can find the energy to stick to my plan.

      Radera
  13. Well, if it's any consolation, a lousy passport pic is usually a pretty good representation of what one actually looks like after a long day of travel. Nobody looks good standing in line at customs.

    Think of how exciting your life will be in three weeks!

    SvaraRadera
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    1. You mean I won't have any trouble getting through customs? that's good :)

      Radera
  14. You know Little Women is my comfort movie. Lol Otherwise its Charmed all day. I hope that things will work themselves out quickly. I fully believe that a great amount of happiness is headed your way to balance out this hard time you have been going through. I just hope it is sooner than later.

    SvaraRadera
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    1. 'Chocolat' and 'Practical Magic' are mine :)
      And I really hope you are right about luck coming my way, I kinda feel like it's overdue.

      Radera
  15. I'll send you a long and very boring email today so you can postpone that spring cleaning for a little while longer. I find it's the actual starting of a project that's the hardest ... once I finally get going, it's hard to stop. It's the getting going part I have difficulty with. ;)

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I completely agree. Once you're up in it it's quite ok, but it's that moment of staring at the mess, considering blowing it off for ice cream and a movie instead...

      A long email sounds wonderful, however boring it may be :)

      Radera
  16. Fabulous you get to be with your man so soon, if just for a short stay, it is still magic :) blog for yourself sweet girl, if we only blog to entertain others we should be actors or stand-up comedians... bloggers are real people, and the friends we make in this virtual world are there for all seasons, so wishing the sun shines on you and time passes quickly until you meet your cinnamon man again x

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Thank you for those kind and wise words, Shelle. And yes, I am looking forward to seeing him again in a few weeks :) I don't think I could keep my strength up otherwise.

      Radera
  17. Vad bra att du kommer att hålla dig upptagen med nödvändiga saker under tiden du väntar på att få åka och hälsa på cinnamon man :).

    SvaraRadera
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    1. Ja, jag bara hoppas att det räcker...

      Radera
  18. I've been thinking of you. I might have emailed you to tell you, but it could have been in the middle of cold-medication-fog, so it is possible that I imagined it.

    In any case... I'm glad you're keeping busy, even if feeling like collapsing. I'm like you when it comes to my weight, I gain a bit here and there and workout again to regain the shape I'm used to. It keeps me from getting bored, and from having to buy more clothes.

    I'm not sure where your Cinnamon man is from, but if it's close to NYC, we must do something together when you come to visit.

    SvaraRadera
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    1. I had a feeling you were sick, sorry. But no email from you - unless it got lost in the ether :)

      Gaining so much weight I can't fit into my clothes just isn't an option for me. I feel like crap long before that. Though I don't work out, I just hold back on the over indulgence.

      I would love to visit you in NYC! But I will be on the other side of America this time :)

      Feel better!

      Radera
    2. Well, you have a blast with your man. I'm so happy you get to visit--enjoy your time!

      Maybe NYC will be next.

      I just realized what I wanted to email you about. It was my belladonna. The first batch of seeds didn't sprout, but I'll try again. Wish me luck!

      Radera

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